im just really wondering right now why the fuck i signed up for this fucking course. really, it sounds interesting and stuff, but i'm just not at the right mood to get into something new right now. actually, im trying to get off some shit i got my self troubled about and now im just putting up more weight to carry around. im really sad that i dont see a reasonable chance to get back into the circus and thats kind of depressing. plus college is coming back on monday i dont know what to do with myself (jokes and white stripes apart). oh well, that was just a way to put somethings out, cause really, im dyeing inside and i have no idea of what to do