i have too much pain for my own good

sometimes i only feel i have a heart cause of my sister. the little bitch stole my heart. i hate feeling powerless.

the balance on earth: people have to die so people can be born. the show must go on.

im just really wondering right now why the fuck i signed up for this fucking course. really, it sounds interesting and stuff, but i'm just not at the right mood to get into something new right now. actually, im trying to get off some shit i got my self troubled about and now im just putting up more weight to carry around. im really sad that i dont see a reasonable chance to get back into the circus and thats kind of depressing. plus college is coming back on monday i dont know what to do with myself (jokes and white stripes apart). oh well, that was just a way to put somethings out, cause really, im dyeing inside and i have no idea of what to do

bibibibubububub blabla

Yes, The River Knows
Please believe me The river told me
Very softly
Want you to hold me, ooo

Free fall flow, river flow
On and on it goes
Breath under water 'till the end
Free fall flow, river flow
On and on it goes
Breath under water 'till the end

Yes, the river knows
Please believe me
If you don't need me
I'm going, but
I need a little time
I promised I would drown myself in mysticated wine

Please believe me
The river told me
Very softly
Want you to hold me, ooo

I'm going, but I need a little time
I promised I would drown myself in mysticated wine

Free fall flow, river flow
On and on it goes
Breath under water 'till the end

Free fall flow, river flow
On and on it goes
Breath under water 'till the end

medo... insegurança... o novo assusta. traz todas as desconfianças, as dúvidas. criam-se todos os universos possíveis e visitáveis por um wormwhole. traz a gravidade de pensamentos. traz a física a falar de sentimentos. de olhos fechados, a gente pula num buraco, esperando que ele não seja negro.

it's the kind of thing i'll get myself wondering forever: why do i always feel like i got to help everyone and make everyone feel ok? it's like i'm always worried and sometimes in the wrong way. like now, i just simply care, nothing else, but showing that i care can lead to totally different things than what i actually feel............ good night